No one can live for you

There are so many things that happen to us in our lifetime. Things that teach lessons and things that pass by unnoticed. Over the course of time, we start to see patterns. Things we like, things we dislike, things we repeat over and over again constantly banging our heads on the wall and sometimes, things we try once and know for certain that it just isn’t the right fit. In my case, that was ballet. I begged for weeks to try ballet and eventually my mother gave in. I attended one class and came home declaring “that it just wasn’t for me”. Now I’m pretty sure my mother wishes I had decided that BEFORE she bought me the right ballet kit but that’s just who I am. I need to try everything once.

Sometimes I’m terrified

There are things I do knowing I will hate them and there are things I do even though they absolutely scare me. Sky diving was one of those just have to do things even though I’m terrified beyond understanding of heights. I like to experiment with life and I draw the line only at trying drugs. I’ve never been a fan of losing control of my abilities, I don’t like being so drunk that I don’t know how I’m getting home. In fact, the only time that ever happened to me, I made my mom drive across the city in the middle of the night to come and get me. Age 23. Yeah not a moment I am proud of but the point is, I don’t like to let go of control over my life. Sometimes I do things that force me to let go.

Life is such a blessing

I don’t mean in the religious kind of way, by now surely you know that I am not a religious person. No, I mean there is so much to experience in this world. So many countries to visit, people to meet, food to try, adventures to be had. I LOVE adventure. I love the feeling that you’ve just discovered a little piece of heaven that no one else has any idea about. I’m pretty sure millions before you have had the same experience but when it happens to you, it’s the first time EVER.

No regrets

When I look back on my life, I like to do so without regrets. The only things I really regret are the people I may have hurt or the time I didn’t spend with someone and the words I said that I didn’t mean. Never, do I regret an experience. Life and every tiny little bit of the experiences we have shape and mould us into the people we are today. When I look in the mirror, I don’t see the thinnest or most beautiful person, but that’s okay because I see a person who has been blessed with a myriad of experiences that some people live a lifetime to have.

Perfectly imperfect

I may not be perfect, I may not have everything that others have but when I look back on my 32 years, I see a life time of living without regrets. As long as my experiences don’t have a negative impact on others, there is very little I can say I won’t try. I’m never going to be that person too afraid to eat the thing that is really weird in my culture. I’m never going to be the person who won’t camp in the middle of no where, I’m never going to be that person who won’t pack a car full of the essentials and hit the road with no map in hand. If you just leap, you find your landing spot and sometimes it scares the hell out of you but that’s the exciting part isn’t it?

Just live

Pack a bag, pack your car, pack your dogs in, throw in a few bottles of wine, grab someone you want to share your adventure with or do it alone but just go! Life is out there, it’s waiting for you but you need to make that decision. You need to get out there, into the world and do all those things you’ve always wanted to do because no one else can live for you.

 

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