The look was there, in his eyes, for only a fleeting second…

A little while ago, a broken and damaged woman, newly a mother, newly without an appendix lay in a hospital bed in a tiny part of town. The news – we’re going to go back in. “In where?” you might ask, into the cavity of my body. The one they just took my son out of and a few days later the remains of an organ. The reaction – fear. Of course.

I looked him in his eyes and I said “Okay, but promise me you won’t let me die”

He looked back at me and I saw him take a breath, hesitating only for a moment but that moment was all it took. I knew that when he responded “I promise” he meant it. I knew, that for certain, he knew the challenges that lay ahead but I knew, he wouldn’t let me down. Because he promised me. I knew that he was hoping for a miracle. Thank the lucky stars that miracle was him!

A day or two later (I can’t be sure) he came into my room, my private glass box (the one they reserve for the critical cases) and looked me in the eye and said “you see, I kept my promise!”

I couldn’t sleep last night. I lay awake for hours thinking – what do you give a man to say thank you for saving you. What do you give a man who saved your life? Somehow, a bottle of wine and a card seems so trivial. He gave me life. I have nothing to offer but my gratitude. Eternally in his debt.

Jonelle | Tyranny of Pink

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  • Why 2015 Sucked and has still been the best year of my life - Tyranny of Pink
    25th November 2015

    […] I realised that I love my life!! When I was told I need more surgery, I held my Doctors hand and made him promise that he wouldn’t let me die. The truth is, I nearly did. I didn’t though. It was in that moment that I realised how much […]

  • ChevsLife
    19th November 2015

    Eternal gratitude for your invaluable gift of life . . . Perhaps YOU being here sharing in your son’s life is gift enough for him?

    An idea, your hand print and your hubby’s hand print with baby’s hand print in the middle?

    • TyrannyofPink
      ChevsLife
      19th November 2015

      Oh that’s a lovely idea <3 Thanks Chev! He's a truly special man and even though he gets paid a lot to do his job, it's so much more than JUST a job!

  • Luchae Williams
    18th November 2015

    Wow! Goosebumps, Jonelle! I agree – I am sure this post would mean all that and more to him!

    • TyrannyofPink
      Luchae Williams
      18th November 2015

      Thank you Luchae! I feel weird about ever showing him… is that crazy?

  • Raquel
    18th November 2015

    He would be so grateful reading ur post I’m sure he has done this for so many other lives and none have showed him gratitude. .only jus expected it….he done a great job and made so many people happy including me…i remember trying to get hold of everyone possible to know what’s going on..heart beating in my throat phone beeping seeing ur mum n Gerads messages was such a relief..ya no please thank that man from me too…
    *doing to bum jive*

    • TyrannyofPink
      Raquel
      18th November 2015

      Thank you Raquel! That was a time I never want to relive. Have another op end of Jan/early Feb and while I trust this man with every fibre of my being I am terrified. I know things won’t be as bad as they were now but all I can say is I’m glad he was born!!!

  • Bonnie
    18th November 2015

    Oh my. This post took me right back to that day. Sitting here with tears in my eyes and a lump in my throat. That man is my hero and and I too will be forever grateful to him. He saved my child’s life. I am sure he would appreciate these words that you have written above more than any gift you could buy. ♡ Some super heroes wear scrubs not capes.

    • TyrannyofPink
      Bonnie
      18th November 2015

      I couldn’t sleep last night for hours thinking about this. I know how hard it must have been for him to make that promise but he did. And he didn’t let me down. He will forever be my hero!

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