Reflections on Living authentically
|People often tell me that what they love about me is how authentic I am. Its the biggest compliment to me. To be told that my greatest inner value shows itself so outwardly. But it wasn’t always this way, for most of my life, I did everything the “right” way. I lived only to make other people happy.
I second guessed my gut feeling telling me that I was uncomfortable with the choices I was making.
I did what I thought was right instead of what I knew I wanted. I was struggling to find my feet, to find my path, to find my happiness.
Every thing felt wrong. Then I nearly died.
Nothing puts your life into perspective quite like fighting for it.
I looked at myself and the values I believed in and I decided that this was it for me. This was my chance to finally live my truth, even if that meant upsetting other people.
It helped me to realise that although we all die in the end, what matters most is how we spend the years we live.
I stopped caring about the jobs I should be doing. The people I should be spending my energy on. The time I had started being about the people and things I love that make me happy.
It’s funny how easy it is to actually be happy when you allow yourself to be. When you let go of all the stupid shoulds and you focus on the things you want.
Suddenly, it’s okay to get all the visible tattoos you’ve always wanted because you don’t want the job that won’t accept that your brain works perfectly with tattoos on your skin. And who cares how they’ll look when you get old. I almost died at 32 without any visible tattoos. No one cared about the way I looked as I lay dying.
You start to make decisions that are more in line with your vision and your heart and things just fall into place.
When you decide, really decide to live authentically, to follow your heart and do what makes you happy, everything aligns.
I’m happier than I’ve ever been. People comment on it all the time. My happiness is visible.
Live your truth. Fuck anyone who doesn’t get your path.
You only have this one shot. There are no do overs.
Do all the things.