Being (South) African in a time of turmoil

I turn on the radio and the news is on. I go to my computer, looking for some relief, let me see what’s on Facebook. My timeline is filled with news broadcasts. I turn to twitter, something good must be there… more news. The world is filled with news, news of my home, my country, my shame.

I read the reports, listen to the broadcasts, look at the images being shared.

People being tortured. Suffering. Death. Violence.


I am ashamed. I am ashamed for my home, I am ashamed to be a part of a world where human beings can be treated like this.

I see burning human beings. I see a 14-year-old smile, that will never brighten up his family’s life again. I see a man with wounds so deep in his back. inflicted on him simply because he’s African but not the same African as me.

How quickly we forget. During harder times when we ourselves sought refuge in the care of our neighbours. Today, we have forgotten. Today we are selfishly claiming the resources of our land. This land, this African land. This land belonging to us all. Defined by boundaries, created by humans. Created by our forefathers, our oppressors.

Xenophobia. The word itself sounds foreign. The treatment of other human beings as lesser simply because we don’t come from the same soil. Isn’t this all African soil?

I am heartbroken. I am saddened. I am surprised at myself, feeling shame of my country. Of the silence of my president who says nothing for days and then fills the silence with emptiness. I am ashamed to be South African today. I am ashamed to belong to a country filled with hate.

I am ashamed.

I am also heart-broken.

[bctt tweet=”I love my country so deeply but this place, I hardly recognise.”]


News articles and opinion pieces 

Charges against the Zulu King 

Do you still love your country?

Zuma calls for calm

ANC condemns the violence

Foreign nationals attacked

Religious leaders plan march


How xenophobic violence can be mediated

Being (South) African



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  • gorgeandropodi
    19th April 2015

    I think it is very sad what your country is going through; terrible to see the people suffering like that and can only imagine everyone’s fear. People are all people irrelevant to where they come from and such inhumane and barbaric behavior is unacceptable. I have many friends over there and fear for them. I think its time the UN steps into your country and helps resolve all these problems; one being to get rid of your corrupt and uncaring government. we keep you all in our prayers.

    • TyrannyofPink
      20th April 2015

      It is incredibly sad what is happening here but I don’t agree that the UN needs to step in. In most places where the UN intervenes, the situation is something almost impossible to come back from where there is no visible government presence and general chaos. South Africa is a fully functioning country that is just experiencing something awful. We can’t have outside intervention after everything that goes wrong or our economy will fall apart and the country itself will plunge into a much darker place.

  • Jolene
    17th April 2015

    Yes!!!! I am ashamed too. And so, so saddened by the horrific and fearful treatment fellow Africans are going through!!! Is just another sad and senseless day!!!

    • TyrannyofPink
      17th April 2015

      It’s such a sad time for us. I can’t understand this level of violence.

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