I’ve been doing a lot of soul-searching. It’s interesting because I don’t believe in souls… so metaphorically speaking I suppose. I’ve been trying to figure out what it is that I’m doing and why. I mean I know I wake up every day and I work my ass off on this blog but the WHY (other than just loving to write) hasn’t been completely clear nor has what exactly I want to achieve.
I wrote these posts;
- How to find your passion!
- Find your passion and you find your purpose
- What goals do you want to achieve?
Know what they all have in common? They’re all about finding your passion and your purpose and setting goals to make that happen. It’s pretty damn important to know what your goals are if you want to achieve anything in life. Even if somewhere down the line to change what that means. Without goals you are just drifting through time and space. No, that doesn’t work for me.
Anyway, I needed to figure it all out. I wanted to make my blog some sort of space to come to, to find posts about something in particular. So I sat down and I looked at my blog and thought to myself; what am I doing here?
I didn’t even need to come up with this answer on my own anyway. You helped me with it.
What surprised me most was that people felt the same way I do
Lately – more than was happening before, people who read my blog have been saying to me that what they love about my blog is that they can relate. This word has come up again and again. Many people have said that they read what I write and they walk away thinking “YES! I’m not alone.”
People seem to resonate with the idea that in the real world, real things happen to real people. MANY people don’t talk about those things but I do. I’m willing to just put that shit down on paper and say hey you know what, this happened and it fucking sucked but that’s okay because I learnt from that experience.
I’m not trying to be some sort of guru or anything
I don’t claim to have all the answers. I don’t see myself as the mother of all solutions to all the worlds problems. I don’t think that reading my blog is going to solve all of your problems either. What I do want, is to share my experiences with other people because maybe, just maybe, it will make one other person feel less alone.
We can use the knowledge and shared experiences of each other and say “hey guess what, this really worked for me when that thing happened”. I just want us to be happy and maybe we can get there by accepting that the things that happen are totally and completely normal.
One way to be happy is to acknowledge that really bad things happen. AWFUL things happen but then good things happen too. We just need to keep our heads up and our spirits high and know that those times will come.
That’s why I write this blog!!
So that’s why I write. That’s the reason I work so hard at this blogging thing. I want to be a part of your life and your stories and I want you to know that it’s okay to be sad. It’s okay to hurt. It’s okay to be so fucking confused about life and everything that goes on in it but know that you’re not alone. We’ve gone through it too. We all go through those times and we all feel alone but we don’t have to. I want to share the successes and the wins and the little stories about how when those things happened, good things happened too. Somewhere on the other side of sadness, there is so much happiness.
Sharing my stories helps me too
I’ve told you all about how my dad died and how I was broken. I’ve told you all about how death has affected my life and my family. I’ve told you about how I thought that all I ever wanted was to be a lawyer but then, I totally failed law school. Funny thing is, failing law school was the best damn thing that ever happened to me. Who knew?! Well – now I do. Now I know that when bad things happen – they teach you lessons and you can sit back and feel sorry for yourself or you can learn.
You need to heal, no one is denying that but at some point, it’s okay to come up for air and know that even in the shittest times – when someone you love dies – you still have to live and you still have so much to be grateful for that it’s okay to keep living. It’s what that person would want and it’s what we’ve probably all had to do at some point in our lives. Keep on moving forward because someone depends on us. Someone else believes in us. Someone else wants nothing more than to see you smile and to know you’re happy. Or just be happy because happiness is freaking fantastic!
And THAT is what inspires me to write this blog. That is what makes me want to keep on going even on the days when I feel like I have nothing in myself to offer to you. Those shared experiences, when you comment on my posts and you say “I get it” – those are the things that tell me I’m doing something right with my life.